Part 3 is dedicated to romance, supras, and marshrutki.
Love and relationships. This is mix of texts that sort of give a brief glimpse of how Georgians and Americans/Brits view love and romance (and boundaries!) differently.
Drinking culture. Georgians love drinking. These are the people claim to have invented wine. Archeological evidence actually supports this claim. Georgians have been making wine since about 6000 BCE. So with some 8,000 years of wine making and wine drinking experience, they’ve really made it an art. I don’t know if many foreigners who live and work in Georgia make it out without experiencing a supra. Really, supras deserve their own post, and maybe I’ll do that someday, but a supra is sort of like American Thanksgiving on steroids when it comes to food and like some intense, long-haul drinking game when it comes to alcohol.
At any given supra there will be wine or chacha (moonshine) or maybe brandy. At your typical supra there will be a tamada, who is the person in charge of giving toasts. He will give a toast, usually to God, then to the friendship between America and Georgia, then to women, then to guests, to children, to nature, to poetry, to anything he can think of. After each toast everyone present is expected to drain their glass of whatever alcohol is being consumed. The glass will be refilled and then you will be expected to drink again at the next toast. On and on until oblivion. Alcohol is very cheap in Georgia and the vast majority of expats take advantage of this. The following texts relate to supras and Georgian and expat drinking culture.
Transportation. Transportation in Georgia is incredibly frustrating. If you aren’t rolling in money, you’re going to be taking a marshrutka (side note, the plural of marshrutka is marshrutki. I hate this, we always called them marshrutkas, but I feel like I should write the official term here. Damn grammar.), which are mini-buses that operate in one of two ways: One-They have a predetermined time to go and people begin filling up the marshrutka way in advance in order to get seats. If you don’t have a seat, you stand, crammed between strangers who may or may not lean inappropriately into your bum or breasts. Or, two-They have no predetermined time to go and sit resolutely until every last seat is filled, meaning you might be waiting 2 hours for your marshrutka to even begin the journey to your destination.
Because marshrutki are the main mode of transportation in Georgia, you get all types of experiences on them. The following is a sample of TLG transportation experiences:
So, there you have it: Georgia through the eyes of expat teachers, constantly texting through the best, worst, and most boring parts of their lives.
TLG life, told through texts, part 2: Everyday life
Before I decided to join TLG, I was obsessed with reading blogs about the experience. I remember one blog kept track of funny texts between TLGers. I attempted to do the same by writing down texts that just screamed this is Georgia! to me. Peace Corps volunteers I spoke to had many similar experiences and can probably appreciate these exchanges as well.
As I mentioned in my previous post, TLGers lived with host families. Many host families didn’t speak English well, if at all. Most volunteers lived in communities where no one spoke English at all. It could be very isolating, spending day after day unable to communicate with the people around you. One of the perks of being a TLGV was the free Nokia phone they provided for you with unlimited texts to other volunteers and staff. With no one to speak to in their villages and no internet connection, many volunteers took FULL advantage of this free texting.
I was one of those who did. At the end of my first year, I had sent 23,008 texts and received 23,096. Yikes.
The following texts are about everyday life in Georgia, particularly dealing with living conditions and host family interactions. They’re organized chronologically.
First semester:
Second Semester:
Stay tuned for the final installment of TLG life as told through texts: The fun and horror of Georgian transportation and drinking culture.
TLG life, as told through texts, part 1: School
I traveled to the Republic of Georgia through a program called Teach and Learn with Georgia, or TLG. TLG is a government program that recruits native English speakers to volunteer to teach English alongside Georgian English teachers in public schools. As part of the cultural integration component, volunteers are required to live with host families for their first semester. The majority of volunteers stay with a host family their entire time.
Georgia is a small country (about the size of Tennessee) with a diverse landscape and a mixture of urban and rural schools. This meant that each volunteer had a truly unique experience as class sizes, English levels, living conditions, and host family situations all varied drastically. Some people had only outdoor plumbing. Others lived in modern apartments. Some had poor families and basically lived on bread their whole time there while others were fed until they burst. Some volunteers had 30 students in each class. Others had schools with only about 30 students in total. Some volunteers lived in cities and others had to travel hours to get to the nearest wi-fi location.
It seems, however, that a common experience for all TLG volunteers was to be thrown off by the organization and professionalism of their colleagues at school. “Thrown off” might be an understatement, but I’m trying to be polite.
I will be including texts about different topics but I want to keep this post short, so, without further ado, teaching English in Saqartvelo, as told through text messages:
First week or two:
Throughout the year:
Last day of school:
As chaotic as school life could be, I think all of the volunteers genuinely loved their students. The volunteers who chose to stay beyond their contracts almost all stayed for the kids. Georgian children are wild, true, but they are full of warmth and love. My heart still hurts when I think of my students and I wish I could give them the world.
Before reading this post, I would really appreciate it if you’d listen to this song. It just gives you the feel for Istanbul.
So, I believe about two years ago I published a post about my glorious experience in a Turkish bathhouse and I promised another post with pictures of Istanbul. You thought I lied, didn’t you? Well, I didn’t! A promise is a promise, so here are some pictures from my little trip to Istanbul (March 2014)!
Unfortunately, my camera takes pretty bad pictures indoors, so I’m not going to waste our time with those disappointing shots from inside the Hagia Sophia or Blue Mosque. You’ll just have to go visit for yourself!
So, did you listen to the song? Is it in your head? You’re welcome!
I actually did travel last year, but you wouldn’t know it from my blog, would you?
Although I didn’t write at all about my last semester in Georgia, I learned some tough lessons from those last few months in Georgia and I feel it might be time to start sharing. This post reflects on the struggles I had with my then-boyfriend and how that fit into the bigger picture of Georgian society. It’s quite personal so feel free to skip this if you’re more into posts about school life or travelling.
One of the biggest things I learned is not to ignore things that you know in your heart but you don’t want to believe. I wanted my relationship to work when it was pretty clear it wouldn’t. I wanted to believe the man I fell in love with was genuine and it was also equally clear that he wasn’t. The man I fell for was a show, and I could hardly stand the man he actually was. However, he insisted he was really the person he was when we fell in love and he just needed a chance to be away from home and to explore a new part of the world, he just needed the chance to grow like I had. And I so desperately wanted him to have that chance. I so desperately wanted to find the wonderful man who had whisked me off my feet, changed my life plans, and encouraged me to dream bigger. I wanted him to have the experiences I had had. So, long story short, we decided to travel to Georgia.
I’ll spare you the details of all the drama and chaos that preceded our trip. I’ll even spare you the details of our life in Georgia. I will go straight to the moral of the story, which is simply this:
Do NOT go to live in Georgia with someone you aren’t sure about. Or anywhere else, probably. But I can tell you from my personal experience: it’s very unpleasant in Georgia.
And now for the highly abridged story. Georgia is a conservative society…. so living with your boyfriend before marriage is a no-go. I didn’t want to lie and say we were married for a couple of reasons. Mainly because I’m friends with my former host families and Georgian friends on the internet and they would know it was a lie unless I faked a marriage ceremony on Facebook. Which would lead to awkward questions back home. And also because we both applied for TLG and I wouldn’t have wanted to lie to them and maybe have to provide documents. Too much hassle. But to be travelling with a boyfriend didn’t give the impression of being serious enough, so we said we were engaged.
Ha. Ha. Ha. Actually, there was a time when we did think we’d get married. Even looked into getting married in Georgia. So that wasn’t a total lie. I laugh now because of how absurd it was in hindsight. How frightening of a prospect. But I’m writing too much about background and not enough about the actual experience.
So imagine this. We stayed up too late in Tbilisi the night before and had to rush to get to Kobuleti, a 5 hour car journey across the country. We’re hot and disoriented when we arrive in town. The director of the school is supposed to pick us up in town, take us to the village, and show us a house he found for us to rent. I call and he says he’ll be there in a minute. We stand sweating in the sun, not knowing what will come next. A school marshrutka picks us up. The director is there with the sports teacher and two women teachers from the school. No one speaks English… It is up to me to translate. Here is what I remember of the conversation:
Teacher: Hello, nice to meet you! Is this your husband?
Me: No, no.
Teacher looks appalled, tsks.
Me: No, not yet!!! Not yet!!
Teacher: He’s your fiancé?
Me: Yes.
Teacher, somewhat mollified: Good, good. How well you speak Georgian! You’re a good girl.
Me: Thank you, thank you.
So from the start I said we were engaged. I quickly regretted not just telling the school we were already married because the first day I drank coffee with the teachers, this happened:
Teachers: Your man, he’s not your husband?
Me: Not yet.
Teachers: But you will be married!?
Me: Yes, of course.
Teachers: When?
Me, panicking: I don’t know!
Teachers: (unsatisfied looks)
Me: Maybe October, maybe December!
Teachers: Good! Where? In Signaghi?
(Signaghi is a popular place to get married in Georgia)
Me, lying my butt off: Oh, maybe, yes. Or maybe Tbilisi.
Teachers: Oh, we want to come. We will have a party.
Me, hating myself: Oh, yes, yes, maybe!
So the Georgians were expecting a wedding while the long-neglected cracks in our actual relationship were becoming impossible to ignore. It was kind of like ignoring a leak, hoping it isn’t a big deal, only to have your roof cave in. Or like thinking that you have indigestion and it’ll work itself out but it leads to a fatal heart attack. Having too much faith and hope can make a person downright stupid. For months I had been that stupid person, ignoring the warning signs, hoping for the best. Until I realized it would never get better. There would always, always be excuses and control issues. We were away from home and nothing had changed. The thing I knew but didn’t want to accept was staring me straight in the face. Even the Georgians knew I wasn’t happy, they knew we had problems. They almost seemed to relish digging in, making me uncomfortable. I swear I had more or less this same interaction almost every day at school:
Teachers: You’re working in Batumi too?
Me: Yes, I work here and I work in Batumi 2 days a week.
Teachers: And your qmari (they called him husband even though they knew we were engaged), he doesn’t work?
Me: No, he’s studying.
Teachers: But you have two jobs, and he has none?! This isn’t good!
Me: But what can I do?
Teachers: He can work at a school. Georgia needs English teachers!
Me: Maybe.
Teachers: He can work at a restaurant!
Me: Maybe
A casino, a bar, picking mandarins….
Maybe, maybe, maybe….
Our host family was just as bad. They couldn’t understand why he wouldn’t study Georgian, why he wouldn’t work, why he spent most of his time in our room. Almost every day:
Host mom: Why doesn’t he study Georgian?
Me: I don’t know.
Host mom: Why doesn’t he work?
Me: I don’t know.
Host mom: he could work at _______ (insert place here). I know people, we can find him work.
Me, at the end of my rope: He doesn’t want to work, ok! Ar unda!
Host mom: Why???
Me, about to cry: I don’t know! He doesn’t want to.
Co-teachers knew we had problems. Host family knew we had problems. One night he packed his bags and left. Host mom saw and was flipping out. I couldn’t translate, so I called my co-teacher. I tried explaining, and she just told me: “Ashley, all husbands fight with their wives. They stay together. It’s normal. We are always fighting.”
Maybe in your culture. Not in mine. But we weren’t living in my culture, were we? No. I was in Georgia, a country where guys can pretty much (literally) get away with murder. A country where women are supposed to cook and clean and smilingly watch their men get plastered as they clear the dishes and bring out dish after dish of home cooked food. Where it’s not uncommon for the woman to have a job, do all the cleaning, all the cooking, and take care of the children and animals while the man sits around doing god-knows-what (nothing. Some (not all) Georgian men are experts at doing nothing). A country where women are supposed to look the other way when their man cheats. And, most alarmingly, a country where one study found a staggering 78% of respondents believed domestic violence was a family matter and 34% believed it could be justified. This was not a culture where I could just say, “whoops we broke up” and still be a kargi gogo (“good girl”).
Except, maybe, just maybe, if we could both agreed it wasn’t working out, he could go to America and we’d tell the Georgians he went back to work and we’d get married later. They’d understand that. Many Georgians go abroad to work. But no, if we were going to break up, it wouldn’t be peaceful. He wouldn’t be respectful. He was going to ruin my reputation while he was at it. He threatened to post things and send messages on Facebook to my friends and host families. He threatened to kill himself, he threatened to hurt me. And what could I do? Call the police? Would they and could they help? And even if they did, I’d be judged and gossiped about forever. It became clear the only way to break up and save face was to go home with him. So I bought a ticket and left two days later. I haven’t seen him since we returned to America. I deactivated my Facebook and haven’t spoken to any Georgians since. I don’t know what they would think of me now. It breaks my heart to think they might shun me for living in sin and not marrying the man.
So, there’s a long-ish post without an especially happy ending, but two important lessons were learned. First, don’t ignore your gut feeling and second don’t tell Georgians you’re engaged if you’re not 100% sure about your partner.
PS- Writing this has been a bit cathartic and I’m considering rejoining Facebook, finding out if my host families still love me. I miss them; I want to know how they are. And because I didn’t go into detail, I’m not sure you can tell how awful that whole experience was for me. But I wanted to say that despite all of it, I feel very lucky. I did have a way out. Many Georgian women, sadly, do not. If you want to read a thoroughly depressing yet informative article about domestic violence in Georgia, check out this article: http://www.eurasianet.org/node/71181.
PPS-Also, if you doubt my skepticism about calling the Georgian authorities, read this excerpt where a woman “recalls the time when she called the police after her husband severely beat her and threatened to throw her out of the house. “As soon as the police came, my husband quickly put on a mask of a polite person, apologized for his temper and told the police that he would never do anything to hurt his family. The police then took me aside and told me – ’In a family, who doesn’t fight? One day you fight, another day you love each other. You are a woman after all; you should try to find ways to make things better with your husband.’” – See more at: http://www.unfpa.org/news/domestic-violence-georgia-breaking-silence#sthash.04P5YlFo.dpuf
I’ve been having a hard time writing lately. I’ve been a bit down this month… The days are getting shorter, the weather is colder, I’m missing my friend who died last year, and it’s starting to really hit me that I’ve lost a lot of good friends back home. That doesn’t mean I haven’t been having a good time, it just means I have less energy to put into this blog because I’d rather socialize or do things that make me happy and keep me distracted.
I’ve started to really get into school life. It’s taken a while, to be sure, but I can happily say that I am getting to know my students and adore them at the same level I adored my other students–which I didn’t think would be possible. For the first few weeks I was incredibly overwhelmed by the sheer number of students (30 in a class, are you kidding me? I attend 8 different lessons which means that I met roughly 240 students in my first few days, not including the ones that introduced themselves to me in the hall). This made me really miss my village school which had less than 180 students in 1-12 grades. We put on plays in my fourth grade classes and I’m hoping start a drama club. We’re working on spelling competitions in the upper grades and will start in the younger grades soon. There’s a lot of work to be done and I’m excited to get started now that I finally have an idea what’s going on!
The other TLGers in Gori and I are also running a discussion group at the American Corner and we’ve all gotten a few extra lessons at various schools in the city… It’s keeping us pretty busy. I really enjoy planning lessons for my conversational adults. It’s so fascinating for me to listen to their stories and discuss their perspectives on the world. It’s also nice to teach people who don’t hit each other and wiggle around in their chairs for a change. 🙂
As for the adventurous, weekend part of things, I’ll direct you to my friend Sanchez’s blog. He did a pretty great job explaining a couple of our trips and I don’t see why I should write about it too when he’s already done it so well.
For your viewing pleasure, my adorable host mom making achma khachapuri
And some animals sunbathing near the border of Russia
Until next time my dears!
Sorry I haven’t been posting, but I got sick again. Waited 6 days before I finally realized it wasn’t getting better and I visited the doctor. I have/had Tonsillitis and Sinusitis (the fun, official name for a sinus infection). Instead of prescribing a series of pills, the doctor prescribed one pill, one inhale-up-the-nose thing, and two injections to be taken for a week. I’m on day 5, thank goodness it’s almost over. My poor butt is bruised like crazy. My friend who gave me my shots last night said that one of my bruises is shaped like a heart and is cute. I guess that’s a small consolation. So anyway, this is what I’ve been up to the past couple weeks.
One day, my host brother didn’t have to work (or so we thought) so we decided to invite over the other TLGVs in Gori to our house. I suggested it, half joking because it was a Thursday, but my family latched onto the idea and were preparing the menus and chilling the wine before I could even invite my friends over. Luckily they agreed to come and I wasn’t shamed in front of my family.
My host brother is a wicked tamada (toastmaster). He makes you bolomde every glass of wine after his toasts. What is “bolomde”? I don’t think there’s a literal translation. I’ve heard it translated as bottoms up, finish it, and to the bottom. Basically is means you do the opposite of what we’re taught to do with wine: chug it. This is normal. What makes my host brother slightly evil is his starting every toast with “Second toast” so you lose track of how much you’re drinking. At some point in the night Claire turned to me with alarm in her eyes and said “this is toast 8!” Lasha says, “no, second toast!” Somehow we all go dancing and it was pretty hot, so I’m guessing that’s why the guys took their shirts off.
Friday I went to one lesson. My second lesson was cancelled and I went home before the last one. The cold had already started by that point, combined with the hangover, and I didn’t think it was great to have my students watch their American teacher function as a swaying snot-faucet. I already had plans to go to visit my old host family and hang out at the beach house one more time. The weather sucked and I felt like crap. Not much else to say about the weekend. Oh, except it’s exceedingly strange to be a guest in a place you once called your home. I discovered this in Ohio too. There’s this feeling that there’s some lines you shouldn’t cross, lines that wouldn’t exist if it was your actual home. For example: taking a nap. Feels really rude when you’re a guest but would be so normal when you were home.
So I got back to Gori Monday night, went to school Tuesday, couldn’t sleep due to coughing up god-knows-what that night and decided to go to the doctor on Wednesday. That process took over two hours. I think I’ve said this before, but I’d like to reiterate. Going to the doctor when you don’t speak the same language sucks. And it’s a little scary. This was the first time I visited the doctor by myself. It sucked. But I won’t go into details. Here’s what they gave me for the low, low cost of 25% of my paycheck (still soooo much cheaper than in the US):
And here’s Tina, my adorable bebia, being my nurse: